It was 6pm, when I went out my room to get something downstairs. I heard some low murmuring, sobbing noise across my room. “Voodoo’s room!” I said to myself. Then went back to my own world, my own room. Watched DVD, checked my email, speaking of checking the time, it was already 12 midnight. I got hungry and decided to grab something in the kitchen. Outside my room, I could still hear the sobbing noise earlier but now the noise was even louder and it hit me, I knocked on my sister’s room.

When she opened the door of her room, her eyes were swollen and very puffy. Face was drenched with tears, she's been crying since 6pm until midnight. she’s urgh, not a sight I want to see, we haven’t spoke for 3 weeks coz there’s something she did that I don’t like. But all of those bad arguments we had were quickly brushed off my mind when I saw her like that. whatever pain she’s torment with, I felt twice the heaviness on her heart. I can’t even move, at the back of my mind I know I have to say something, I was caught off guard, I need to say not just something , BUT something right. Shit. I hate this.

OK here’s the picture, We allowed our13 year old sister to have a boyfriend, Coz my Dad gives us so much trust and he trust us that we are responsible for ourselves, for all of our actions. The pervert was her “first-love” eventually, even though we don’t really like this guy she’s hooked up with, we don’t have any choices to forbid her. We were so nice to him. We even let him feel at home. Eventhough Pervert guy said rude stuff to our Dad, that he’s fat and so and so. Oh, I forgot why am i calling him Mr.Pervert? sobrang MALIBOG! Fuck him. Pursuing my sister to have sex with him, even asking her to strip dance in front of the webcam when they’re online. But My sister was instilled with bombarding advices from her Big Sis and Bro. That Sex for her should be at the age of 18 and with the right person. That’s why she didn’t give in to Mr.Pervert’s perverted way of thinking . Not to some asshole who don’t even know how to respect women! No.. No…

TO YOU MR. PERVERT:MIGUEL, Who do you think you are? You know what? What kind of family would raise some kind of a bastard like you! It tells a lot what kind of a person are you. I’m not going to waste much of my time on some losers like you, God is still kind for he knows my sister doesn’t deserve some asshole. Pray hard asshole. Yes, asshole? Why? You really look like an ASSHOLE, literally. Do not let me see you ANYWHERE. God knows to what extent I can do to you. Save yourself from serious embarrassment

To my sister, Voodoo
Every now and then , life can be a little rough, don’t trust easily. Breakups do happen to all people, I’ve gone through that too. and move on to someone even better ,you might discover a wonderful person that you never knew before , someone so much better than what you have had. God has wonderful plans for you, believe me, been there, done that. and you have any idea how much painful it is for us, me ,ditchi,ahya and papa to see you crying for a guy who don’t really deserve your tears? It’s like double the pain your bearing right now.

The terrible thing about getting dumped or abandoned is it shrinks our self-esteem. We feel a full tidal wave of rejection bring us to our knees, there’s the inner hate and we tend to self-destruct mode. don’t be like that, you’re young, pretty and very much lovable .the world has still a lot to offer you.

You know there’s a story someone shared to me,

if I show you 1,000 PESOS, do you like to have it?
Of course yes.
what if I crumpled it, would you still like it?
Still , yes.
What if I crumpled it, stomped it and threw it, would you still go after it and get it?
YES, OF COURSE. It is still money and it still has a value.

I want you to be like that, know how to give VALUE to yourself no matter how torn you are. Coz at the end of the day, what important is how you give value to yourself. When we value something, it has a positive quality for us. We prize it, cherish it, esteem it, respect it, hold it deal. you earned it from choices we are glad we made.

shobe, i love you no matter what happens, i'll be at yourside forever. accepting the truth is the very first step in healing.